Real People

I have met him but I do not know his name. I am sure he has no memory of me. Real people don't do this. Real people aren't left thinking about a stranger who they know nothing about - are they? Not real people as old as me.

I know where I could find him, while at work. The though is to slip him a note, somehow, with my name, number, e-mail the modern girl's calling card. Something safely witty and distant to protect me, and then disappear into the crowd. But real people don't respond to those things, and what under heaven would I say?

I have questions: Is he attached? How old is he? Why on earth would he be interested in me? How I long for a name. Real people must know these things, blind dates even know theses things. I am driving myself insane.

I have no indication that he would do more than crumple the paper and walk away. It might be better than way, real people would react that way. Do I do it, just to see, on that off chance that he is as unreal as me? Which outcome do I long for? What is wrong with me? Real people do not think these things. Real people do not do them.

Should I?
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So I figured I'd keep you posted on things....

Sunday would be Brenden and my's one year anniversary...

Would be.

If we weren't taking a "break"....What the hell is a break? I mean, really. What the hell....

He told me it wasn't my fault at all.... Or that he didn't want me to be sad- but he just needed some time to see if he's missing anything- or not.

And so... I'm talking to a boy. (have been talking to a boy for a while, because the boy is my friend.) A boy who is in band. And is very nice. And this "talking" shall remain innocent. Because 1- I still have boy-at-home... 2- I'm still in love with boy-at-home. 3- I'm not really boy-at-college's type.

: /

So. that's how life is right now. Kind of shitty. Kind of okay. I'm just trying to live my life like I know Brenden is.

Oh. yes. the 'talking' shall remain innocent unless! Brenden is dating some high school slut. But I won't know if he is or not, because he hasn't called in two days.

I feel like such a traitor when I talk to other boys....Because I feel like I shouldn't be... But, you know what? Brenden probably is talking to other girls, so what's wrong with me being a friend to a boy? I mean, really.

I'm a whore for talking to a boy so soon? I mean, it was Sunday when Brenden called it off. And really, I am only talking to him. It's not like we kiss and stuff. Because, actually, I've only talked to him face to face a couple of times. It's mostly online.

I don't know. I don't even know what a break is... I don't know what it entails. I don't know what the boundaries are. I don't know.

Any advice?

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So. My birthday was fun. Nothing special.. We're eating birthday dinner at Joes Crab Shack on Tuesday....wanted to wait for Brenden when he wasn't working... :D

AND SPEAKING OF THAT SWEET SWEET BOY!!!!

Gah.

He got me these two cute shirts from vacation... Which he was giddy about.. he said, "And this one's going to look really good on you! It's more like something you'd wear..and i really didn't know if you'd like the other one..." And he babbled and was excited...

The biggest thing was though- He got me a golf bag! It was sweet. It's orange and black and he said, "It's orange. And I know it's not your favorite color, but it matches your clubs..." He was so funny. Not to mention, he filled one of the pockets with golf balls and tees.. Not any ordinary golf balls... But LADIES balls. ladies balls he'd spent hours picking off the range at the golf course. All the times he'd said, "Hey, this guy at the course wants me to go pick the range with him..." Um, all those stupid times, he'd gone to find ladies balls.. ::grins:: Not crappy ladies balls either- they aren't scratched or cut or anything. plus. they're like, titleist and other good balls. He also bought me some yellow balls because he knows I like them. He was so giddy and happy. He was all telling me about the bag and how it was two straps so it's like a back pack and all the pockets and how we'd have to go play a round...

And then he gave me his putter... ::laughs:: He was like, "This putter has made a 30 foot putt, a 40 foot putt from the rough and it's also made a 50 foot putt...." And he was so excited.


:D

He was like, "I didn't have enough money to buy you a putter when I bought the bag, but I will buy you one." I asked why... Since the one he gave me was fine.


It's just so funny. I took him taco bell to eat at work- he worked a 10 am to 8 pm shift- and he was like, "There's my birthday girl..." I laughed. He's so funny.


And I love him. :D

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So, I've been with Brenden for almost ten months...It's so unbelievable. It feels like yesterday he was giving me my first kiss. I love him so much. I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be, than with him. I miss him a lot, when he's at work...or when I'm at work, or any time we're apart, really. He makes me so happy. Soo very happy.
When I first met Brenden, I was a completely different person... I'm so glad I'm with him. I'm glad I've changed. It was for the better. I feel like a better person when I'm with him.
Mind you, all couples fight, but we've never fought over something serious yet.
I'm scared to death to go to college. I'm so afriad he's going to meet some other girl and I'm going to be alone at college, wishing he'd call, or answer his phone. I'm terrified that the distance will break us up.
But fears are not reality...And I know he loves me. And i love him.
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So, I've been with Brenden for almost ten months...It's so unbelievable. It feels like yesterday he was giving me my first kiss. I love him so much. I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be, than with him. I miss him a lot, when he's at work...or when I'm at work, or any time we're apart, really. He makes me so happy. Soo very happy.
When I first met Brenden, I was a completely different person... I'm so glad I'm with him. I'm glad I've changed. It was for the better. I feel like a better person when I'm with him.
Mind you, all couples fight, but we've never fought over something serious yet.
I'm scared to death to go to college. I'm so afriad he's going to meet some other girl and I'm going to be alone at college, wishing he'd call, or answer his phone. I'm terrified that the distance will break us up.
But fears are not reality...And I know he loves me. And i love him.
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lOve

Hey, Im new and this is the perfect spot to spill my feelings.
Thoughts of today; My boyfriend and I have been together for almost four months but it seems like it has been forever. We know everything about eachother; inside and out. Sometimes it feels like he knows me better than I know myself. Without him, I wouldn;t be myself. He basically completes me. Its just utterly impossible to imagine my life without him. I know I haven't fallen in love with the idea of being in love, I am in love. Its really hard to explain because all the moments we have are just moments that are completly beyond words. But yes; that is my little rant.:).

Farewell Beauties
xox
Shes Biting Her Lip and Still can't Stand the Sight of a Boy.
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Hi. I just found this community, it seems very cute. I am also in love..His name is Leo, we have been together 2 years and 4 months. We have had rocky times but all in all im soo happy to be with him. I was inlove the day i met him, no lie. I have been head over heels since.=D And for everybody thats in love, its a wonderful ride<33 bye loves..

xox,*Tiffany
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hello there. i just joined this community. i don't have much to say right this moment. but i'm in love! with my boyfriend of almost 4 months. shure, its not that long. but he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. and i can't even begin to describe how he makes me feel. teeheeee. <3 well i'll post later.

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