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Real People [01 Nov 2004|10:46pm]

also_adie
[ mood | restless ]

I have met him but I do not know his name. I am sure he has no memory of me. Real people don't do this. Real people aren't left thinking about a stranger who they know nothing about - are they? Not real people as old as me.

I know where I could find him, while at work. The though is to slip him a note, somehow, with my name, number, e-mail the modern girl's calling card. Something safely witty and distant to protect me, and then disappear into the crowd. But real people don't respond to those things, and what under heaven would I say?

I have questions: Is he attached? How old is he? Why on earth would he be interested in me? How I long for a name. Real people must know these things, blind dates even know theses things. I am driving myself insane.

I have no indication that he would do more than crumple the paper and walk away. It might be better than way, real people would react that way. Do I do it, just to see, on that off chance that he is as unreal as me? Which outcome do I long for? What is wrong with me? Real people do not think these things. Real people do not do them.

Should I?

1 felt butterflies| I love you.

[22 Sep 2004|12:45am]

candyhearts13
So I figured I'd keep you posted on things....

Sunday would be Brenden and my's one year anniversary...

Would be.

If we weren't taking a "break"....What the hell is a break? I mean, really. What the hell....

He told me it wasn't my fault at all.... Or that he didn't want me to be sad- but he just needed some time to see if he's missing anything- or not.

And so... I'm talking to a boy. (have been talking to a boy for a while, because the boy is my friend.) A boy who is in band. And is very nice. And this "talking" shall remain innocent. Because 1- I still have boy-at-home... 2- I'm still in love with boy-at-home. 3- I'm not really boy-at-college's type.

: /

So. that's how life is right now. Kind of shitty. Kind of okay. I'm just trying to live my life like I know Brenden is.

Oh. yes. the 'talking' shall remain innocent unless! Brenden is dating some high school slut. But I won't know if he is or not, because he hasn't called in two days.

I feel like such a traitor when I talk to other boys....Because I feel like I shouldn't be... But, you know what? Brenden probably is talking to other girls, so what's wrong with me being a friend to a boy? I mean, really.

I'm a whore for talking to a boy so soon? I mean, it was Sunday when Brenden called it off. And really, I am only talking to him. It's not like we kiss and stuff. Because, actually, I've only talked to him face to face a couple of times. It's mostly online.

I don't know. I don't even know what a break is... I don't know what it entails. I don't know what the boundaries are. I don't know.

Any advice?
3 felt butterflies| I love you.

[08 Aug 2004|11:45pm]

candyhearts13
So. My birthday was fun. Nothing special.. We're eating birthday dinner at Joes Crab Shack on Tuesday....wanted to wait for Brenden when he wasn't working... :D

AND SPEAKING OF THAT SWEET SWEET BOY!!!!

Gah.

He got me these two cute shirts from vacation... Which he was giddy about.. he said, "And this one's going to look really good on you! It's more like something you'd wear..and i really didn't know if you'd like the other one..." And he babbled and was excited...

The biggest thing was though- He got me a golf bag! It was sweet. It's orange and black and he said, "It's orange. And I know it's not your favorite color, but it matches your clubs..." He was so funny. Not to mention, he filled one of the pockets with golf balls and tees.. Not any ordinary golf balls... But LADIES balls. ladies balls he'd spent hours picking off the range at the golf course. All the times he'd said, "Hey, this guy at the course wants me to go pick the range with him..." Um, all those stupid times, he'd gone to find ladies balls.. ::grins:: Not crappy ladies balls either- they aren't scratched or cut or anything. plus. they're like, titleist and other good balls. He also bought me some yellow balls because he knows I like them. He was so giddy and happy. He was all telling me about the bag and how it was two straps so it's like a back pack and all the pockets and how we'd have to go play a round...

And then he gave me his putter... ::laughs:: He was like, "This putter has made a 30 foot putt, a 40 foot putt from the rough and it's also made a 50 foot putt...." And he was so excited.


:D

He was like, "I didn't have enough money to buy you a putter when I bought the bag, but I will buy you one." I asked why... Since the one he gave me was fine.


It's just so funny. I took him taco bell to eat at work- he worked a 10 am to 8 pm shift- and he was like, "There's my birthday girl..." I laughed. He's so funny.


And I love him. :D
2 felt butterflies| I love you.

[07 Jul 2004|01:06pm]

candyhearts13
[ mood | thankful ]

So, I've been with Brenden for almost ten months...It's so unbelievable. It feels like yesterday he was giving me my first kiss. I love him so much. I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be, than with him. I miss him a lot, when he's at work...or when I'm at work, or any time we're apart, really. He makes me so happy. Soo very happy.
When I first met Brenden, I was a completely different person... I'm so glad I'm with him. I'm glad I've changed. It was for the better. I feel like a better person when I'm with him.
Mind you, all couples fight, but we've never fought over something serious yet.
I'm scared to death to go to college. I'm so afriad he's going to meet some other girl and I'm going to be alone at college, wishing he'd call, or answer his phone. I'm terrified that the distance will break us up.
But fears are not reality...And I know he loves me. And i love him.

I love you.

[07 Jul 2004|01:06pm]

candyhearts13
[ mood | thankful ]

So, I've been with Brenden for almost ten months...It's so unbelievable. It feels like yesterday he was giving me my first kiss. I love him so much. I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather be, than with him. I miss him a lot, when he's at work...or when I'm at work, or any time we're apart, really. He makes me so happy. Soo very happy.
When I first met Brenden, I was a completely different person... I'm so glad I'm with him. I'm glad I've changed. It was for the better. I feel like a better person when I'm with him.
Mind you, all couples fight, but we've never fought over something serious yet.
I'm scared to death to go to college. I'm so afriad he's going to meet some other girl and I'm going to be alone at college, wishing he'd call, or answer his phone. I'm terrified that the distance will break us up.
But fears are not reality...And I know he loves me. And i love him.

I love you.

[02 Jul 2004|07:59pm]

missgarcia
i love...

living with my boyfriend

summer time

days off from work

when my boyfriends little brothers fight for my attention

<3 being in love <3
I love you.

lOve [02 Jun 2004|06:58pm]

porcelain_052
[ mood | loved ]

Hey, Im new and this is the perfect spot to spill my feelings.
Thoughts of today; My boyfriend and I have been together for almost four months but it seems like it has been forever. We know everything about eachother; inside and out. Sometimes it feels like he knows me better than I know myself. Without him, I wouldn;t be myself. He basically completes me. Its just utterly impossible to imagine my life without him. I know I haven't fallen in love with the idea of being in love, I am in love. Its really hard to explain because all the moments we have are just moments that are completly beyond words. But yes; that is my little rant.:).

Farewell Beauties
xox
Shes Biting Her Lip and Still can't Stand the Sight of a Boy.

4 felt butterflies| I love you.

In love<3 [01 Jun 2004|01:43pm]

i_shine_for_you
[ mood | happy ]

Hi. I just found this community, it seems very cute. I am also in love..His name is Leo, we have been together 2 years and 4 months. We have had rocky times but all in all im soo happy to be with him. I was inlove the day i met him, no lie. I have been head over heels since.=D And for everybody thats in love, its a wonderful ride<33 bye loves..

xox,*Tiffany

I love you.

new kid [15 Feb 2004|12:41pm]

candixcoated
[ mood | dorky ]

hello there. i just joined this community. i don't have much to say right this moment. but i'm in love! with my boyfriend of almost 4 months. shure, its not that long. but he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. and i can't even begin to describe how he makes me feel. teeheeee. <3 well i'll post later.

! kelso

2 felt butterflies| I love you.

Here's where I want to be [20 Jan 2004|11:16am]

mdyesowitch
[ mood | depressed ]

I don't want hoppie to be the dog I kick when I feel like everything is spiraling out of control. How can I tell him that I love him?
-m

I love you.

[11 Jan 2004|04:01pm]

liddle_joannie
[ mood | curious ]

Does anyone have any unforgivables when it comes to boyfriends, girlfriends, significant others, lovers...

And have you ever gone back with someone in a moment or weakness or desrie or confusion, after they committed this unforgiveable?

Comment if you have thoughts or stories.

Its sort of a touchy subject but...
Colin cheated on me. I was 17 at the time and very much so in love with him. I really thought he could never do any wrong, even though I missed signals of it all along while we were together. I was so in love I didnt see it. And when he cheated, I lost it.

I cannont tolorate cheating. To me its an unforgivable. It feels like a slap in the face, suddenly you mean much less to the person than you thought, if only even once they replaced you with someone else. Its a burn to the ego and a crunch to your heart and nothing is worse in my eyes.

Yet I went back to him... time and time again. I always thought, maybe this time it will work, maybe this time he'll be honest. He never was. He didn't deserve any of the second, third, and fourth chances I gave him.

Perhaps if this happens to me again later in life I will know not to go back into things with someone who cheats on me.

I love you.

All the loves of my heart (trust me, it's a big one) [03 Jan 2004|05:43pm]

gypseian
[ mood | drained ]

I love a name.

I remember once hearing that some people merely love the idea of being in love, not the actual act of love itself. Maybe that's what it is. Maybe that's what I'm feeling.

I actually love several people. Each one of them is so different, and each one of them I know on varying degrees. Some of them are real. Some of them are ideas. But each one of them makes my flesh burn with need, and there are times when I can't get them out of my head. Maybe I want them there..

My BoysCollapse )

My GirlsCollapse )

I'm almost afraid of real love. Of true love. I thought I had it once, with Jeremy, but then he killed me. Even being near him hurts, although I still lust for his touch and his mouth.

*sigh* And I'm spent.

I love you.

I know you see me watching you [03 Jan 2004|07:32pm]

mdyesowitch
[ mood | maudelin ]

This line from one of those boring inspiration email chain letter that makes the round every so often got me thinking:
5. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
I didn't know his name. I saw him in halls. And everytime he would pass me, neither of us would say anything, he would just smile and me, and I would smile back at him, and I knew he was like me, too shy to speak, too sweet to ignore. We went on like that for weeks, maybe months. Me not knowing him. Afraid to ask. Afraid to notice, because he woke something in me. Something dormant. Something beyond what I had, what I was willing to accept. Something secret. Something I couldn't tell anyone. I was half in love with him, and I didn't even know who he was or what he did, what sort of man he was. Am I romanticizing it? I don't think so. I remember dreaming about his smile. I remember counseling someone to always smile, with his smile before my eyes, because his smile was the sexiest thing I could imagine.
And then it came, my boss sent me to find someone to get some software. And I didn't know who she meant, but I dutifully followed her directions to his office. And he was walking towards me on the way there. And I smiled. And he smiled. And when he reached me, he stopped. And I said, "Oh, it's you then?" which is possibly the stupidest opening line I've ever had. And if this were romance, he would have kissed me right then. If this were steamy romance, he would have carried me back to his office and had his wicked way with me on his desk, as I later so often imagined. But it's real life, and things don't work that way. He said, "Yes." and he took me to my software. And the promise remained just that, a promise. And I continuing the stupid flow of meaningless conversation said, "I didn't know who you were." because I'd heard his name. "Did you know you were meeting me?"
"Yes," he answered with a blush, "I asked around."
You see in the end, he was bolder than I. But neither of us was quite bold enough. And so the story ends. Or lingers in the air like the scent of the man I was too afraid to touch.

I love you.

[15 Dec 2003|04:53pm]

liddle_joannie
[ mood | enthralled ]

How is it possible when someone nearly throws up on you and then passes out cold, that it turns out to be one of the best nights of your life?

I happily took care of him. I HATE vomit. The things we do for those we adore...
I was the one there for him, and he was so greatful this morning.

Made me feel like 10 million bucks.

1 felt butterflies| I love you.

My love [13 Dec 2003|02:31pm]

gypseian
[ mood | rejected ]

I met him through my ex-boyfriend. The night I lost my virginity, I met the person I would find myself loving so insanely that it keeps me up at night.

I don't know why I love him, except that I do. The way he fits next to my body, the way we share a kiss, his voice, his eyes, everything. We recently separated, but still see each other. I cannot even explain how it feels, not falling asleep to him at night.. not seeing his face or hearing his voice every day. All he would have to say is "come back to me" and I would pack up my stuff right now. But he won't. He's afraid it would go back to the way it was. Even though I tell him the reason I was so crazy was because it was my last year. I needed his strength, his support, because I couldn't do it on my own. Now I'm back in my parents house, and I may never get what I want.

He's the only thing I've ever been sure about. I gave up the chance to go back with my ex so that I could stay with him. And now I can't have it, and I feel like my life has no meaning.

He stopped by today. I hadn't seen him in three weeks. We went around town to turn in his check and to pick up a few things he needed, then got something to eat and he dropped me off home. We shared an intimate kiss. I came back inside and now I'm crying.

I know I'm "still young", from what everyone says. But he was my best friend. He was the one person I wanted to be with, without a doubt. And now I feel empty. I wish he could stop being afraid and simply love me as much as I love him.

2 felt butterflies| I love you.

What a man [10 Nov 2003|10:50am]

mdyesowitch
[ mood | grateful ]

He cleaned up the bits of shattered mailbox. I couldn't even look at it. I just walked away at high speeds, but he cleaned it up.
What a man.
-m

I love you.

[12 Oct 2003|04:02pm]

liddle_joannie
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I havent had much to say lately, because the boy has moved away. He got a very good job across the country, the could really be good for him. So off he flew... I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder.. or get more broken in my case.

Anyhow,
I wanted to welcome new members, thank new memebers for joining, and my original members for any pimpage.

Now.
I liked asking the "song" question because it prevoked response from all of you...

So now I have three more questions about your main squeeze for you to think about and answer with.

1. What is their one phsyical feature that really does it for you?

2. Have they ever seen you cry?

3. Share a memory. Can be dirty, cute, lovey dovey with pink bunnies...anything goes.

5 felt butterflies| I love you.

Happy Birthday [10 Oct 2003|04:31pm]

mdyesowitch
[ mood | accomplished ]

I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to our fearless leader.
love on,
-m
toast
love on top
love on bottom
love tied to a bed....

I love you.

[27 Sep 2003|05:39pm]

liddle_joannie
[ mood | enthralled ]

He just bit me, messed up my bed, got me right baked, gaves a tummy kiss and zerbert.
This has been the best afternoon of my life.

I just can't believe how soon the 13th is. I can't beleive hes leaving.

7 felt butterflies| I love you.

[26 Sep 2003|06:53am]
take
i just had the best dream about him. <3
I love you.

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